no sense, too tired

I like to write

Laziness wants to fight me

I say bite me or spite me but these words are my freedom

I have broken these chains, my pains are a part of me

so don't start with me on your idea of perfection

although tonight my brain isn't making connections

correction, they just aren't good

the idea that I should quit and call it a day

will people say that the way live is incorrect

I deflect possibility

for tranquility

I'd rather be happy than anything else

myself is who I am to please

I prove things to myself and that's what makes life a breeze 

this poem doesn't make sense

hence the lack of sense

wait that was redundant 

im underfunded because I'm broke and I struggle to write a good joke

but I will tell you sleeping is a piece of cake

which I'm about to do because I have a headache for fuck's sake

redundant video postification

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vb3uXTyjCD0

okay, so this may seem redundent but I made a video saying I have this blog.  XD I am smart, i know right?

Starchild

The past four years have gone so fast
All the while thinking it’ll last
And now we’re at the end
no more playing pretend
no more dodging responsibilities
no more putting the future on hold
because it’s happening
so don’t live life in denial, clinging onto your youthful ignorance
I say embrace the choices you make and age in style
and whatever you do after you leave this place, don’t lose sight of yourself
So often I see people going to a job that they hate when just a few years ago they were perusing they’re dreams
And Maybe they were just pipe dreams, but they lost hope
And when you lose hope life takes a little more away from you than it should
Like it’s saying “you could of done more”
Because we’re young
I Never want to forget what that feels likes
Even if it means buying those glow in the dark stars, writing everything I want out of life on them and putting them all over my bedroom ceiling so when I lay down every night I get to lookup and see my wishes
And the beauty of stars is, when one blows up it can create new ones
A never ending source of childlike wonder fueling our decisions
Our ambitions
Sure it’s dangerous out there and we can get hurt
But what’s living without a few battle scars
So when life knocks you down, you better be jumping right back up
At least that’s what needs to happen
I’m no stranger to depression, no stranger to feeling down
I remember the days I didn’t have friends to lean on
And the only attention I got only seemed to make things worse
Things have gotten better of course, but they’ve left their mark
My little reminder that I can’t be hiding in the dark
because when you live in the dark you have a hard time finding yourself
maybe that’s why I changed so much, I’m using the stars to see. 
So maybe I don’t seem like the same me
Maybe I don’t act the same way I used to
Maybe we were once close and now it feels like a mountain separates us
With change, I’ve lost friends, I’ve lost bits of me
Lost… but not forgotten
I’ll never forget how the past felt
And I can’t change it, I have to play the hand I’m dealt
So I’m going to make the most of it
I’m going to do what makes me happy
And that’s something no one is going to take away from me
because we make our own meanings to life
and even though nothing’s set in stone I want to be one of those old dudes that never lost touch with their inner child.
Who in his heart never lost stopped following his dreams
Making everyone’s day just a little bit better
Because when other people are happy, he’s happy
I don’t know how much time I have
But I know I need to make the time count
If I… If I could just make one person… one person feel better and just help them shine bright like the stars above us, then I know it was worth it all
But hey, I can’t live for other people and I can’t make your decisions
All I can do is wish you the best of luck with everything life throws
And no matter how things go the show must go on even after we’re gone
And this is just a chapter ending, there is so much more to explore
So make the next chapter so big and bold, make it legit
Because you never know who will read it  

all great things must come to a close

At the beginning of last summer I took a job offer.  This job offer led me to explore a whole new world.  Or at least opened my eyes to the other side of the one we reside in.  Oh the joys of banking! Anyways, I've had a wonderful time overall but i seem to be getting more emotional as my last day comes ever closer.  Like any job, it’s been an interesting mix of good and bad.  I’ve met so many cool people while simultaneously meeting people that I could forget ever existed.  Sometimes I have to wonder how people can think a certain way.  But anyways, there have been a lot of positives that have stemmed from this little experiment of mine.  I was able to gain a lot of communication skills that I once did not possess.  I became more comfortable with myself as I gave countless presentations to the youth.  I did any and everything in my power to be the best me.  Well at least in the eyes of the customers.  You learn to put on a fake smile in customer service.  You learn to express feelings that aren’t there.  I believe those who work with people, become great actors and actresses.  They do it all.  And so when someone leaves a job, no matter the reason they are overwhelmed with emotions because as soon as you change jobs you begin a new chapter.  You see all new faces, all new problems and complaints.  You see the good and the bad and you power through your day like it doesn’t faze you.  And so with this in mind I bid this chapter goodbye in return for a new one.  Now whether it is better or not is still up in the air.  Only time will tell J