here's to a new year

So I promised I wasn't going to rant today but it's close to 2013 and I am defiantly being filled with emotions.  I just don't know.  I'm looking forward to this coming year.  There is a lot I want to happen.  I really doubt that my resolutions will be life altering.  I mean, the way I see it, I'm going to try and make as many videos as I can.  I'm going to be the best goddamn friend I can be to this girl.  And to both of those I say, whatever happens, happens.  The two things I want most in 2013 are beyond achievable.  Who know what will happen.  I'm trying to avoid freaking out or pouring my heart out because I don't know who will read this, and that could be awkward.  I was talking to someone today, and I said something that really rings some truth.  If everything fails, there's always college and parties to bring my spirits up.  Because let's face it, I'm an absolute train wreck of emotion.  I'm bound to get hurt regardless of outcomes, so knowing that that's the fall back then I really want to succeed.  Succeed in life, in love.  I have enough problems with myself, I really don't want to add addictions into the matter... I just need to focus, and not let anything get to me.  The person I value most once told me that life gets easier when you stop giving a shit.  and I'd like to say I'm getting better at doing that.  but then again who knows if I'm venting on an internet blog.  A BLOG! ugh, anyways, here's to 2013 may you find happiness like no other, love that is irreplaceable, and find moments that make everything worth it.
I'm not getting a midnight kiss this year, but next year, I want it to be the first of many with her.

Happy New Year! :)

my new video

So the other day I was talking with my friend and we came up with an idea for a new series to start up titled monster news where we basically cover news stories in our own little crazy way.  I kind of wanted some feedback :) click here to watch it hopefully it's good enough to become well liked :)

today!

Today is the day! I slept in til about 11, which by my standards is pretty fucking awesome seeing how I haven't been able to sleep past 8 lately.  I followed up that with a swift nom nom noming of breakfast and I headed back to my room.  I finished the editing for my new video which will be up later today :) I love when I'm in a good mood, I always feel on top of the world!!! later today my parents will be taking me to a hockey game soo i'm excited, until next time.

dedication!

Dedication is key! I keep telling myself that I have to stick to writing.  I have to keep making videos, I have to not forget I have these outlets.  It's really something I need to focus on.  Social media is my outlet, entertainment is my passion.  I don't normally express myself and so everything just builds up inside without this source.  Which kind of sucks when I'm dealing with writer's block or something of that nature.  See the problem is I'm torn with a lot of things, and like most cliche things, there's a love interest.  Oh yes I am going to be "that guy".  I feel kind of bad venting about it on this blog but then again I don't care.  I like to think that things will magically fall into my lap, but of coarse that's something left only to fairy tales.  Fun fact, this person is well... not single :( and oh yes that heart breaking moment of being a guaranteed friend-zone member.  I try and reassure myself that this is a temporary matter and that they will somehow break up and I will be the magical man to step in.  Obviously, that won't be me.  I'm not good looking and i'm incredibly awkward.  That's practically a strike out right there.  I'd also like to add in that the two of us have had a rocky kind of past but everything is good now, I mean history has got to speak for something, right? Never the less I'll stay dedicated, waiting for the moment to have them in my arms, if only for a moment.

I'm going to bed to dream about the possibilities

Goodnight everyone :)

some new lines

Yo this kid’s never succeeded

Always defeated

Yet he’s never backed down

Never retreated

Yo he’s dropping bombs in this place

He’s out of place, from outer space

He’s leading this race

And does it with so much grace

He’s coming in hot

With everything he’s got

One shot is all he needs

To do his deeds

The whole crowd agrees

He’s a sensation

A new revalation

Ready to lead this nation

Keeps holding steady

No celebrations, no confetti

He can’t afford to be so petty

It’s a shame

He can’t step up his game

But that’s cause he’s at the top

No reason to stop

But the balls about to drop

And all we hear is new year, new year

forgetful me

okay, okay, I get it... I suck at remembering this blog.  I mean I try, that's gotta get me some brownie points, right? okay that was worth a shot I guess.  I guess I should talk about xmas, or my life, but I think I'll save that for another day, until then.  I'm taking a nap on my floor!

lyrics to my ke$ha die young verse

Yeah it’s time to live tonight

We know how to do it right

Glasses raised shots go down

We’re gonna run this town   

Live forever, that’s the plan

Sorry if you don’t understand

now or never

Don’t act clever

Get lost in the moment

There’s no turning back

Living life on a party track

Dj don’t stop me now

Sit back and all show you how

 We do this all day

Please don’t play with what I say

Things are getting pretty hot

Lets give it all we’ve got

Leave you happy for days

Before we go our separate ways