why do i procrastinate

I keep asking myself this because time and time again i put myself into stressful situations over stupid stuff that I could have gotten done eons ago but i forgo to do random things.  My brain isn't compatible with school.  Especially senior year! I will try and get better at it at least :P

Thanksgiving

ah thanksgiving, that magical holiday where we say we're thankful for what we have, then stuff our faces with more food than any other day, then plan to buy a bunch of useless stuff we don't need.  Is it just me or is that a little ironic.  I mean really, all I care about right now is eating and I can't do that because I have to "wait for lunch".  I don't really see the point in a lot of holidays because they're just used to market random stuff.  I mean seriously people spend so much every holiday, and for what? NOTHING! We just spend spend spend pretend theres a purpose then let it collect dust or eat it.  WHAT THE HELL PEOPLE

What to blog about?

AM I the only one that seems to come up empty handed time and time again on creativity.  I don't mean to come out negative at all but I mean it's crazy.  I can just sit here staring to the endless whiteness of a blank screen just to take a break with nothing done.  I don't think it's that I can't write, but it's that i don't think what I'm writing is any good.  I haven't made a youtube video in sooo long.  Like it's not even funny.  I want to make more videos, but i use time as an excuse.  While yes I am busy most of the time I still could make videos more frequently, but I digress.  I don't know what deters me.  Or what stops people from following their dreams.  We could all get closer if we wanted to, but we don't. Part of me thinks it the idea of failing.  If we don't try then we can always dream.  Dream of the endless possibilities that lie ahead for us.  But if we try and fail, we will always live in the shadow of our defeat.   Always being overshadowed when in reality it shouldn't matter.  We fail all the time, it's just this is held a little closer to home.  I'm not saying I'm going to magically change and post all the time and force my way in.  But I will at least acknowledge my avoidance of it all.  And that's a start at least :P