why do i procrastinate

I keep asking myself this because time and time again i put myself into stressful situations over stupid stuff that I could have gotten done eons ago but i forgo to do random things.  My brain isn't compatible with school.  Especially senior year! I will try and get better at it at least :P

Thanksgiving

ah thanksgiving, that magical holiday where we say we're thankful for what we have, then stuff our faces with more food than any other day, then plan to buy a bunch of useless stuff we don't need.  Is it just me or is that a little ironic.  I mean really, all I care about right now is eating and I can't do that because I have to "wait for lunch".  I don't really see the point in a lot of holidays because they're just used to market random stuff.  I mean seriously people spend so much every holiday, and for what? NOTHING! We just spend spend spend pretend theres a purpose then let it collect dust or eat it.  WHAT THE HELL PEOPLE

What to blog about?

AM I the only one that seems to come up empty handed time and time again on creativity.  I don't mean to come out negative at all but I mean it's crazy.  I can just sit here staring to the endless whiteness of a blank screen just to take a break with nothing done.  I don't think it's that I can't write, but it's that i don't think what I'm writing is any good.  I haven't made a youtube video in sooo long.  Like it's not even funny.  I want to make more videos, but i use time as an excuse.  While yes I am busy most of the time I still could make videos more frequently, but I digress.  I don't know what deters me.  Or what stops people from following their dreams.  We could all get closer if we wanted to, but we don't. Part of me thinks it the idea of failing.  If we don't try then we can always dream.  Dream of the endless possibilities that lie ahead for us.  But if we try and fail, we will always live in the shadow of our defeat.   Always being overshadowed when in reality it shouldn't matter.  We fail all the time, it's just this is held a little closer to home.  I'm not saying I'm going to magically change and post all the time and force my way in.  But I will at least acknowledge my avoidance of it all.  And that's a start at least :P

only douche bags say swag

Swag is such an overused word

The fact that it still has a meaning is simply absurd

Can’t people just have a new phrase

because this phase is like a maze filled with fog and haze that’ll leave you walking in circles for days

it’s like swag is a god, and you must give praise

can someone give me an answer to why that post just gave spiderman cancer

be lyrical, maybe even satirical, but I swear to god I don’t care how empirical it is, I will smack you for saying swag

why do you guys want me to nag

Seriously, swag sucks severely

when people ask if it’s cool I say no not nearly

let’s put swag to some good use

so listen to this swag abuse

Fuck a thesaurus

I’m a swagasaurus who can’t sing a chorus

My rhymes aren’t always vicious but they’re always swagalious

I’ve got swag so I don’t grow old

I moved to the gulf to golf and drill for swag gold

Who knows, maybe I’ll spill some swag

You know the animals need a daily dose of swag

It’s outrageous, it’s contagious

My ego’s crowded but with swag it’s so spacious

let’s face it, society’s about to collapse

it’s official, stupidity is about relapse

let’s play a drinking game, after all we’ve got nothing to lose

everytime someone says swag, get out the booze

and after a few hours of fun followed by vomiting and a killer hangover

we will finally know that saying swag is over

because it’s lost its thrill

so swag, you know the drill

you’re a fad that can’t leave fast enough

because saying swag doesn’t make you tough

it doesn’t make you original

it doesn’t make you special

it doesn’t do the slightest bit of good except fuel that hot head of yours

and that’s why one should say swag

only douche bags say swag

Lines

I'm writing lines
Walking on thin ice
Look to my past to see whose nice
And whose a lie
To not get hurt would be to not try
I guess the time for regrets has past
Because its my lines that'll last

off to work and new material on the way

I'm kind of rushing this because once again I have not planned things out and need to get to work really soon.  Time management have never exactly been a forte of mine to put it gently.  Anyways, I have been having a terrible time lately and was in need of a rage poem/rap to calm myself.  It's short right now but it may continue.  Hopefully it's good :)  Also I was listening to Kill Everybody by Skrillex on my way home today so... theres that to XD Time to be productive!!! :D

why do we do what we do

I don't why I'm bothering to think of this now, but I might as well before I fall asleep and forget about it.  What is the reason behind our actions, our motivation to madness.  I'd like to say I can rationalize my actions but sometimes I end up in WTF moments that just leave me speechless.  I love how we'll do something we know fully well will wind us up in trouble.  That we fall in love with someone even though we know they'll just break your heart </3.  We a crazy creature that feeds off of the needs of others.  Social sociopaths that do what ever they want.  And yet at the end of the day, when all has been said and done... we manage to function and not kill everyone.  That's a very good thing :)