Monday, December 31, 2012

here's to a new year

So I promised I wasn't going to rant today but it's close to 2013 and I am defiantly being filled with emotions.  I just don't know.  I'm looking forward to this coming year.  There is a lot I want to happen.  I really doubt that my resolutions will be life altering.  I mean, the way I see it, I'm going to try and make as many videos as I can.  I'm going to be the best goddamn friend I can be to this girl.  And to both of those I say, whatever happens, happens.  The two things I want most in 2013 are beyond achievable.  Who know what will happen.  I'm trying to avoid freaking out or pouring my heart out because I don't know who will read this, and that could be awkward.  I was talking to someone today, and I said something that really rings some truth.  If everything fails, there's always college and parties to bring my spirits up.  Because let's face it, I'm an absolute train wreck of emotion.  I'm bound to get hurt regardless of outcomes, so knowing that that's the fall back then I really want to succeed.  Succeed in life, in love.  I have enough problems with myself, I really don't want to add addictions into the matter... I just need to focus, and not let anything get to me.  The person I value most once told me that life gets easier when you stop giving a shit.  and I'd like to say I'm getting better at doing that.  but then again who knows if I'm venting on an internet blog.  A BLOG! ugh, anyways, here's to 2013 may you find happiness like no other, love that is irreplaceable, and find moments that make everything worth it.
I'm not getting a midnight kiss this year, but next year, I want it to be the first of many with her.

Happy New Year! :)

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